Monday, October 06, 2003
my head is here but my mind is not
There has been alot going on in the last two weeks for me. Stuff i can't control, stuff i don't have and answer to, stuff i care not to have a n snswer to, stuff i don't know, stuff i can't change, things that make a feel completely alone and have know is ideas on how to fix ME!!!
I had a dream last night. It was not the strangest dream. But it was one of those that will never come try so why the hell am i dreaming about it in the first place. It was about me loving this certain person, and him loving me as well. there were issues in both our lives that in my dream and in reality is keeping us apart. Now in my dream we talked about it and of course since it was my dream we could change something. But now i wake up i realize that it can never in my wildest dreams ever happen. Now tell me why even dream about it?
Other stuff has been happening, like i meet with my soon to be fiance this weekend. Alot of things happened. But since i am unsure of what is happening and what is going on at this point i would really rather not post it on my blog. Sometimes i can't always write what i am thinking or what is really going on in my life, because for some odd reason people actually read my blog, and keep track of it, Other that YOU!
School, is ok, it is not what i really want it to be. I wish i could get my priorities in place. The thing is they are in place i just don;t take them seriously, and do what is impotant. I find my slef paying more attention in work then school. It is because work is easier and when i leave at the end of the day i don't have to take it with me. But school, i am getting so behind, and i always procrastinate in doing my homework and studies that it makes me feel sad that i am not doing what is important. I am going to go now, because i really don't have anything to say that i want people to know just yet. So everyone have a great day. Don't forget to smile atleast once:)
love sarah
I had a dream last night. It was not the strangest dream. But it was one of those that will never come try so why the hell am i dreaming about it in the first place. It was about me loving this certain person, and him loving me as well. there were issues in both our lives that in my dream and in reality is keeping us apart. Now in my dream we talked about it and of course since it was my dream we could change something. But now i wake up i realize that it can never in my wildest dreams ever happen. Now tell me why even dream about it?
Other stuff has been happening, like i meet with my soon to be fiance this weekend. Alot of things happened. But since i am unsure of what is happening and what is going on at this point i would really rather not post it on my blog. Sometimes i can't always write what i am thinking or what is really going on in my life, because for some odd reason people actually read my blog, and keep track of it, Other that YOU!
School, is ok, it is not what i really want it to be. I wish i could get my priorities in place. The thing is they are in place i just don;t take them seriously, and do what is impotant. I find my slef paying more attention in work then school. It is because work is easier and when i leave at the end of the day i don't have to take it with me. But school, i am getting so behind, and i always procrastinate in doing my homework and studies that it makes me feel sad that i am not doing what is important. I am going to go now, because i really don't have anything to say that i want people to know just yet. So everyone have a great day. Don't forget to smile atleast once:)
love sarah
