Sarah's Life

I have done alot of reading on the computer today. And all it has made me think, made me wonder, and has made upset. I wanted to apologize for anything i have ever said,told, done or asked. I am sorry Grady for everything at work. I did not realize a conversation at lunch would have made such a big deal and i feel bad. So I am sorry. To clear the record Sarah feels great right now. I am not sad about not being with anyone. Or about being alone. I feel great, and have no regrets. Sometimes situations are uncomfortable but people after time get over them. It just takes time. It is not always so easy being the bigger nicer more polite person when the after effects come out completely not what you expected. You bit your tongue, and hope the next conversation goes better, you hold your breath and hope the other person has grown up a little to accept the obvious and have a half way decent unargumentive adult conversation. It is not your fault it the person you try to be friends with has no interest to forget and get over. So when you are put in weird situations, yes it will be uncomfortable, not because you miss, or want , or still secretly like, it is because they make it hard for you to be you! And with ending this, I am not a stupid peson, i am clumsy at time, and may seem a little slow but usually it is not because I don't understand or I am anything else it is because if i can say one senseless, and meaningless statement, or do some pointless action to make one, just one individual laugh or even at the least smile, then to me making your self the butt of other peoples jokes it is all worth. I like to see people smile and laugh and if all it takes is one careless action then i don't mind. But before i go I would like to make clear, I have never and will never hurt, brake, or bleed to make someone laugh, i am really am just that clumsy!:)
love sarah

Yesterday was my first day off of the week. It was a good day and I had fun. I only got pissed once. Arrr… I am still freak in aggravated, this blind bitch decide I did not look like me one my license and would not sell me my cigarettes. Uh I was not too happy. And today I went somewhere else to buy them and they just about did not talk my license. What the hell is going on? I thought about going swimming today. (I hate getting wet), so I put my suit and shorts on and went and laid out side for a few, and then I went running. I went from my house to the lake, and all I got to say is damn it was freak in hot out side and for once it was not IJ! I came in while I was outside lounging to retrieve a cd, and I scraped my leg, it was all bleeding and there was some missing skin. I was walking and I apparently was walking to close the chipped flowerpot. I came inside, and my mom started in on how I can’t do anything without getting hurt and how accident-prone I was. She thought she was being funny. I am off tomorrow and I am sort of off Thursday. I have to go to this complete bull-shit meeting from 5-8. Ahhh… I am always so damn nice to my customers and the one I miss is my stupid Mystery Shopper. So I have already done this once, but my job thinks they should once again pay me for 3 hours of sitting one my ass like Jackie and get paid to listen to this very boring laid talk about “how to give good customer service and how to fucking smile more often” I have got once thing to say, they can take my smile and shove it up there dirty ass. I am very polite to those stupid ass customers, if I am not seeing them and not making eye contact, or at the least smiling it is probably because I am not SEEING them. Well I do just have to sit and get paid, but I really rather not. I can’t believe every time I fail I am going to have to go to one of these meetings man I am going to be the one person that has gone the most that two more and I will get to teach the class. I have been at this store a year and not once got over a 38% but never a customer complaint. Wonder why? And I have 4 of those ugly cheap gold pins. Hmmm… I wonder what the deal is? Gots ta go and cook so I will talk later.
Peace out
sarah